Tuesday, October 11, 2005
for those hu noe.. yes said was admitted into the hospital again.. had fits yesterdae.. but hes ok now.. stable.. but he has to stay in for awhile..
cudnt slp yesterdae nite.. weried sick bt him.. end up nt studying.. juz watching tv n lying down.. felt frustrated.. wanted to cry bt held back.. i tot its nt gd to cry during bulan mulia.. got so tired.. din go skool.. juz went to see him...
watching him slp.. he looks lyk hes in pain.. he looks unhappy... even though looking at him make me sleepy too, bt it pained me more.. i miss him a lot.. 4 months n counting.. ask myself hw long can i hold dis up.. bt i noe i will no matter hw hard it is.. sumone asked me 'wad wud it take for me to leave him?'
till he sae he doesnt luv me.. i wan him n i nd him.. hes special.. very special to me.. im still young, i can afford to wait.. i wan to b der for him in his recovery.. starting out again isnt tat bad.. =)
emotional turmoil juz now.. din go terawih cos i was hafing internal conflict wif myself.. God forgive me for wad ive said juz now.. i din mean it.. lost control of myself.. of my emotions.. bt Alhamdulilah im better now..
been awhile since i visited my nenek.. i dunno hows shes doing.. feel guilty n sad.. learn sumthing last month.. i hope she will live surpass the time framed given.. God help me.. i wan her to b present if i enter n graduate frem Uni.. Insyallah.. i reli hope so.. i pray n pray..
i pray for my life to get back on track as before.. i pray for everything to b better.. i pray for U n me..
*my luv for u is real-Sani Waid*
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